致康妮·考克斯的颂歌

Tonight I dusted off my books, old books. As dust fell and scattered, I allowed the memory of my best friend to break thru the years and once again renew my faith in people. I know you’d see humor in this and be glad that I do but really it’s hard. You always found something good in people.

今夜我拂去书上的灰尘，那些旧书。当尘埃飘落四散，我任由对挚友的回忆穿越岁月而来，再一次让我重拾对人的信心。我知道你会觉得这很有趣，也会为我这样做而高兴，但这真的很难。你总能在别人身上发现美好之处。

Quite frankly I’m just dusting around yesterday, coping with too-day and hoping your memory won’t diminish as I dust.

说实话，我只是在昨日的周围掸着灰，应付着这“太多的今天”，盼望着你的记忆不会随着我掸去的尘埃一同消散。

I never wanted to be sterile clean, just tidy you see but sometimes today is just too today.

我从不想要那种一尘不染的洁净，只是想整洁一些，可你看，有时候今天实在是太“今天”了。

Sometimes I think I’m too loyal to the memory of our friendship as in hanging on to better times.

有时我觉得，我对我们友谊的记忆太过忠诚了，就像紧紧抓住那些更美好的时光不肯放手。

friendSHIP. Friend—ship. Friendly ship? Ship on a lonely sea that’s friendly? Don’t fire on that ship, it’s friendly not the enemy. A lot of thought can go into those two words. A lot of friends are on that ship. We’re shipping off all these friends? Everybody’s on different ships trying to get to a friendly world? Aha, too many friendly people so they had to take many ships. Or, ship everybody off and away, they’re too friendly.

友谊（friendSHIP）。朋友—之船（Friend—ship）。友善的船？孤海上一艘友善的船？别向那艘船开火，它是友善的，不是敌人。这两个字里可以藏进许多思绪。船上载着许多朋友。我们要把这些朋友都送走吗？每个人都在不同的船上，试图驶向一个友善的世界？啊哈，友善的人太多了，所以他们不得不动用许多艘船。又或者，把大家统统送走，他们实在太友善了。

If that’s the case then there must also be unfriendlys. I can see it all now, who’s the majority here now, the friendly or the unfriendly? Then we have all the various levels in between, the not so friendly etc.

若真如此，那也必定有不友善的人。如今我全看明白了，究竟谁才是这里的多数，友善的，还是不友善的？而在两者之间，还有形形色色的层次，那些不那么友善的，等等。

Could the unfriendly become so powerful that the friendly leave or give up? Then we have a power play structure and some wish to not play the game of life anymore, too much energy expended, give up. Sometimes the battle is not worth the victory I guess.

不友善的人会不会变得强大到让友善的人离去或放弃？于是我们便有了一套权力博弈的格局，有些人不愿再玩这场人生的游戏，耗费了太多精力，只好放弃。我想，有时候，那场战斗并不值得那份胜利。

I guess my question is, did you not have enough friendly soldiers or was it a complete takeover?

我想我的问题是，是你的友善士兵不够多，还是这是一场彻底的接管？

I of course remain your friend and ally in the timeless hourglass, regardless.

无论如何，在这永恒的沙漏里，我当然依旧是你的朋友与盟友。

— Rosie

—— 罗西